Yaya's Reflection, Let The Words Being Me

I tell all the people I know that I love you, except you You, who never look in my way Many times I have been ready to tell you what my feeling is but something is always in the way you, who never look in my way when we're together I enjoyed every second of our togetherness that I didn't want to lose it by telling you how I feel when we're apart I miss you too much that I didn't dare to say it You, who never look in my way

My open heart is waiting for you to enter My open heart is ready to be filled with another heart My open heart has healed its wound My open heart has made a peace with its scar Will you be the guest of my open heart ?

Ingin kupanggil namamu agar kau memandangku Ingin kugenggam tanganmu agar kau tak jauh dariku Ingin kau menyadari hadirku agar kau tau perasaanku Ingin kukatakan cinta agar kau dengarkanku Ingin kukatakan kangen agar kaupun membalas rinduku Inginku agar kau memberikan ruang di hatimu untukku

As a teacher, every end of the term I have to write something in my students' report cards. At first I thought that was an easy job, all I have to write is : PASS or FAIL and leave a comment for the parents, and give stamp like poor, average, good or excellent. But, when I face the report card I found myself confused of what to write. Who am I to judge someone with stamp like fail, poor, average, good, or excellent ? if I want to make my job easier all I need to write is : your child is failed because she/he didn't come to the class. However, my conscience was bothering me. That's so typical !! I don't want to give comment like that, it's not right at all. That's why I didn't comment on their lesson but I wite about their character. On one of my student's report card I wrote : she is smart, funny and talkaltive. After all, who am I to judge them??

Setahun sekali aku meminta maaf ke hampir setiap orang yang aku kenal tak peduli apakah aku akrab dengannya atau hanya bertemu sekali dua kali atau bahkan tak pernah bertemu dengannya Setahun sekali aku membuka kembali Al-Quran dan membacanya sampai khatam tak peduli dulu, dapat dihitung dengan jari kapan aku membacanya dua lembar saja Setahun sekali sholat sunah Tarawih aku lakukan tepat waktu dengan khusyu tak peduli kalau bukan di bulan yang khusus ini sholat wajibpun aku kerjakan di saat waktunya tlah hampir habis Setahun sekali hanya setahun sekali aku berubah menjadi lebih beriman Aku tak mau hanya setahun sekali biarkanlah...tahun ini awal aku mengerjakan semuanya bukan hanya setahun sekali

Ada jiwa yang bergetar setelah sekian lama tak tersentuh hari ini jiwa itu berdesir mendengar ayat-ayat suci dibacakan setelah sekian lama menutup telinga Ada hati yang beku setelah lama tak dicairkan hari ini hati itu luluh membaca ayat-ayat Al-Quran setelah sekian lama tak menyentuhnya Ada hati yang memohon ampunan-Nya setelah sekian lama berpaling hari ini hati itu mengiba, memohon sebuah ampunan dari-Nya

kita bagaikan burung yang terbang tinggi jauh di angkasa menempuh perjalanan kita aku sayap kirinya yang menemanimu,sayap kanan malam ini sayapku patah dan kutak mampu menemanimu lagi kita bagaikan burung aku dan kamu adalah sayapnya terbanglah walau malam ini sayapku patah

Akhirnya kerinduan ini terbalas juga setelah penantian sekian lama Ratusan malam kulewati tanpa mampu memejamkan mata Hari-hari kujalani tanpa bersamamu Hari ini kupanjatkan syukur tak terhingga kerinduanku terbalas Rinduku terhadap Ramadhan Marhaban Yaa Ramadhan Aku ingin melewati hari-hariku bersamamu, Ya Ramadhan temani aku Harapku, Ramadhan ini saat aku mencurahkan isi hati ini hanya kepada Allah semata

The white rose fell the day you left this world The wind stopped blowing when you stopped living This summer is so quiet I feel so alone in here I still can see us walking together I still can hear the sound of you playing the piano and I still remember the day we became friends Those days were so beautiful Now, I'm living with those days when you stil with me PS: this poem is written for Narumi (one of the character in Ordinary People)

Can I say I'm tired I'm tired of smiling when I'm down I'm tired of trying to cheer up when nothing goes right There's a moment in my life that just for once I want to think of me and myself without having to worry of what other's think of me There's a moment in my life that I want to be alone enjoying myself without being afraid of offending others There's a moment in my life That I want to smile, cry or laugh without having to explain why There's a moment in my life that I want to think by myself without letting others influence me There's a moment in life that I need to have a moment in my life

Hujan, turun ya hari ini begitu panas juga hatiku Turun ya, hujan basahi bumi ini sehingga hatiku ikut luluh Kalau kau sirami bumi ini mungkin kesedihanku juga ikut hanyut terbawa olehmu Hati yang panas ini menjerit untuk didinginkan Hati yang beku ini mohon untuk dicairkan Janji ya, hujan hari ini turun untukku