Yaya's Reflection, Let The Words Being Me

I met my inspirational person yesterday in my very own class. Before wrapping up my class, I told them to write an essay what they want to be after graduated from high school. One student, her name is Fitria, wrote : I want to be a nuclear scientist and I want to die syahid. When I read her essay, I'm so touched by her writing that tears started to roll down my cheeks. I'm so ashamed of myself, always thinking of me, me, and me. I forgot that there are plenty of other human beings out there that desperately need our help. My student, Fitria, is a usual high school student. That's what I thought before, but now she is a very inspiring person. Who ever said inspiration always come from someone better than us?

Si kecil manten itu tlah pergi Meninggalkan sejuta kenangan Suarara tahlil terdengar Mengiringi kepergian si cantik Rohaye Sabtu lalu Tak akan ada lagi wajah cantiknya Di layar kaca kita Tidak akan ada lagi Rohaye Rohayeku telah pulang menghadap Sang Kuasa untuk selamanya Selamat jalan Manten kecilku Selamat jalan Sukma Ayu

Have you ever felt like me? this is the worst feeling I've ever had, missing someone so bad that I can't think of anything else to do. I had just dialled his number,but I couldn't bring myself to call him. How I wish everyone of us had a sixth sense that would know immediately when someone is thinking of us. My heart hurt so much now, because my head can't stop thinking of you Have you ever missed someone so much that everywhere you look, all you see is that person? I thought I saw you today but it wasn't you I became more helpless How can I see you my heart ache knowing this feeling won't go away, until I can see you it becomes more painful for I know you will not know how I miss you PS : I really do miss you

If we love each other so much why the tears,then Isn't our love strong enough to hold the tears If my love for you is as much as your love for me what are the fightings for Isn't our love big enough to hold us from hurting each other If the love we have so sacred why we turn to others for love Isn't it not pure enough to hold on to our love

Will you stay the same as you were a year ago I don't ask much just you keep being you I need to talk to you without ending with fight I need to share my feeling without you keep a distance from me in the end Can you listen to me as I listen to you without any doubts I am the same girl you met a year ago You have changed so much I don't even know you anymore If there's too much to ask.. Will you stay the same

Cinta hadir Bukan untuk dipertanyakan Ketika ia pergi Cinta memilih tuk pergi Bukan karena Tidak cinta lagi Cinta memilih Untuk pergi sejenak Jadi, Ketika cinta datang lagi Aku siap untuk menerimanya Dengan seluruh hatiku

Tanggal Dua puluh September dua ribu empat akankah nasib bangsaku kan berubah atau tetap bahkan mungkinkah balik ke angka nol lagi Aku berharap tak banyak hanya seorang pemimpin yang adil dan bijaksana tentu saja yang memiliki hati nurani Aku berdoa agar saudara-saudaraku sebangsa memilih dengan hati nurani juga dengan logika Dalam doakupun kusertakan aman dan damai menyertai Indonesiaku ketika terpilih seorang pemimpin baru Bangsaku, Indonesiaku selamat memilih Pergunakanlah hak kita dengan baik Berdoa jangan lupa sebelum memilih

"I Love you no matter what". Recently my friend poured her heart out to me, saying that his boyfriend-want-to-be just revealed his deepest secret about his past to my friend. And she, having heard that guy’s confession, started thinking whether she wants to make their relationship works or she just calls it quit. That brings me to questions like: what word comes after I love you no matter what? Is there a but, and, unless, or though after that six simple but meaningful words? We can’t deny that we often say that magical words to our partners, our family and even to our friends as quick as the wind blows. But, have we ever stopped for a moment just to absorb what we just said to them? What impacts do these words to me and them? Let me tell you something about my parents. They don’t (or maybe never, as far as I can remember) say that magical words to me or my siblings. Though I know their actions show more than that to us. I know that’s so much different when someon...

Look at the bright sides...hah!! Like I do that my own.When stuck in the traffic for hours, where is the bright side of that? only to buy a mineral water in Hero I have to queue in a long line, tell me again the bright side? I have learned and learned to look at things at their bright sides,at least I have proven that when things get tough there are always bright sides. That brings me back to a year ago when I had to pick my sister up at the airport,the plane was delayed so I had to spend another hour in the airport and break my fast there (it was in the fasting month). Finished with cursing the plane, I started to find a seat to sit. Suddenly someone from the crowd say “hi, how are you?” turning around and…oh My GOD…my elementary friend stood right in front of my very own eyes. He just came back from Batam and waited for his parents’ plane. The next thing I know, we had chatted all the way until it came to say goodbye. My sister’s plane had just arrived. Well, hadn’t the plan...

No distance between us, is that a song title? Anyway, being a grown up I now know how it feels to live separately from my siblings. Actually the distance between me and my third sister is only three sectors away. But for me, whose dreamt of having a big house so my whole family could live under the same roof,I used to feel there's a distance between us (especially when my third sister got married). I miss the moments when me and my third sister fought about almost everything,we have different opinions almost about anything from the the AC temperature,tv channels,and others. But, we have something in common too,like we like shopping,we both miss going to Singapore again,and most importantly we both love each other (Right sis??). Thanks God to technology, I salute whoever created handphones,emails,SMS,YahooMessenger and other communication devices. Because of them,now it only one SMS or a chat away to be with my siblings. My sisters, brothers and me live separately, they a...

From Chris Walker's song (how do you heal a broken heart) he only taught us how to heal someone's broken heart. I wish I could meet him so I can personally ask,"how about my nation's broken heart?" How can we forget the sound of the bomb that ended innocent lives on September 9th,2004? How can we pretend not to see the buildings that had been smashed succesfully by the explosion? How about the families who lost their father,mother,son,or their daughter? Yes,I know...maybe even someone like Chris .W. needs sometimes to think of a proper answer. If someone needs time to mend her/his heart, how much time does my nation need to recover? Only GOD knows the answers... Tonight I'll hold what could be right Tomorrow i'll pretend to Wake and put it all behind me No offense to Chris Walker,but I don't agree with the word "pretend". We can't pretend this never happened, but what we can do is we try to get back to our feet again...

Maafkan aku cinta karena merindukanmu malam ini Bukan mauku kalau hasratku masih ingin bersamamu Aku minta maaf, cinta bila hatiku tetap berisi tentangmu Melupakanmu berulang kali kucoba kutak kuasa menolak bila hati ini masih mengingat cinta Menghapusmu dari jiwa dan ragaku tlah kulakukan kenapa cinta masih ada juga belum pergi dariku Maafkan aku cinta kalau aku masih cinta

Luka lara menyelimuti negeriku ketika ledakan menyelimuti Indonesiaku Pedih dan pilu hati ini melihat negeriku menangis kembali Apakah maksud semuanya ini Tuhan... Dosakah kami... Cobaan apakah ini Tuhan Aku mencoba untuk tegar takkan kubiarkan manusia tak bertanggungjawab atas perbuatannya puas melihatku menangis Doa kupanjatkan untuk bangsaku agar kembali tersenyum Aku percaya Tuhan pasti menjawab doaku

Hari ini Indonesia kembali berduka... Tuhan,bolehkah aku bertanya? kenapa masih ada orang yang tak berhati Alasan apa yang membuatnya berbuat seperti ini? Marahkah ia kepada Indonesiaku? apa amarah dapat teredam oleh ledakan? Tuhan,hati ini menangis jiwa ini bergetar melihat,mendengar,dan menyaksikan jiwa-jiwa yang gugur tanpa salah apapun juga Hari ini aku memohon pada-Mu hentikan semua ini Jangan biarkan semuanya berlanjut.. Tuhan,tolonglah Indonesiaku

I was wrong denying our love turning myself to other love when I had you I was blind to not see the love we had I don't know which is the worst betraying you and us or making us no longer to be us Dear, I know now you're the only one for me give me second chance I'm begging you Time will tell how much I do want us to be together and make our hearts reunited Marrying you is one thing I'm sure of PS: Inspired by the story of Leo in FeMaLe AfterHours Monday,Sept. 6,2004

Kau datang juga Setelah sekian lama penantianku yang berakhir dengan harus kecewa Ada ragu di hatiku untuk menghampirimu Timbul ragu untuk menyapamu Akankah kau berpaling dariku Akankah ada jarak antara kita Kau datang juga, akhirnya tersenyum dan menyapa Ternyata jarak itu tak ada pun kau tak berpaling dariku Hari ini Kau datang juga akhirnya Rasa itu belum hilang walau dulu kau tak datang membiarkan rinduku tak berbalas Rasa itu masih ada ketika hari ini kau datang Menatapmu, di dekatmu membuatku berharap andai waktu berhenti ketika kau datang PS : To A.A.S...this poem is for you

I can't look you in the eyes Cos I know, you'll see my heart I can't be near you Cos I will hold you close thought I can't I can't talk with you Cos I Love you will I say I can't smile back at you Cos I want you to be my world that I know, you can't be I can't make you to be for me Cos you can't You and I know.. we just can't

When I thought no one cares someone calls and ask how I'm doing When I thought no one listens to me anymore someone picks up the phone and anwers my call When I thought nobody will answer my e-mails someone does When I thought everything has changed someone shows me that nothing has changed someone does care someone listens someone will answer Nothing has changed... Hasn't it?

Cinta datang lagi Menghampiriku dengan senyuman Dan pandangan yang teduh Tadi, cinta ada lagi Masuk ke jiwaku yang kosong Mengisi relung yang terluka Luka yang tertoreh lama Memudar oleh waktu cinta ada lagi sebagai jawaban doaku selama ini Cinta,ternyata tidak pernah pergi aku hanya perlu melihatmu dan yakin... kau datang dengan cintamu hanya untuk kita

I fall in love.. When I enter a room full of children who call me Miss they dont't have any clues that inside I feel like there were hundred drums banging on me Then, that room becomes quiet when I start talking they don't know with each word I say,sweats start trickling down my cheek I fall in love when those children cheering, laughing and clapping their hands with me they have no ideas that every movements they make,I become nervous I fall in love when I find the innocent looks,the mischievous looks in their faces I wonder, are they putting acts or genuine Even when they're making noises I still fall in love Even when my class so quiet,more than a graveyard I still fall in love Even when things start to go wrong I fall in love still They're my children, my responsibility That's why I fall in love with them....

Ketika kita bertemu di dunia yang megah ini aku tak mengharapkan kasih darimu Tetapi... Ada yang mengetuk hati kita di saat kita jauh pun sewaktu kita berdekatan Apa yang kita ucapkan juga kau dan aku lakukan, walau tidak bersama.. aku seakan memiliki dua jiwa satu jiwa ini dalam tubuhku dirimu memiliki jiwaku yang lain sehingga kitapun merasakan hal yang sama Kasih terlalu dini tuk diucapkan karena bukan hanya kasih yang kita rasakan Cinta ternyata memutuskan untuk masuk dan tinggal di jiwa kita Bukan perkataan cinta yang aku maupun dirimu ucapkan Tapi... ketika aku merindukanmu saat kaupun menginginkanku Juga... ketika cinta bukan kata yang sakral yang perlu kita ucapkan karena kita tahu aku untukmu dan kau untukku itu lebih dari cukup dibanding seribu kali kata aku cinta kamu